Wednesday, January 24, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
im dying here. someone please save me.
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 11:31 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
Die you Little Slut. Die You Man Whore.
Die Motherfuckers Die.
haha fuckin emo shit.
tangina niyong lahat putangina.
pareparehas kayo.
anyway.. have you heard of this song?
dear diary,
mood: apathetic
my life is spiraling downward. i couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate Me Dry Concert. It sucks cause they play some of my favorite songs like 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You,' and 'Rip Apart My Soul,' and of course, 'Stabby Rip Stab Stab." and it doesn't help that i couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band could do, some days you know. . .
i'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
you'd be non-conforming to if u look just like me
i have paint on my nails and make-up on my face
i'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
'cause i feel real deep when i'm dressing in drag
i call it freedom of expression most just call me a f*g
'cause their dudes look like chicks, their chicks look like d*kes
'cause emo is one step below transvestite
stop my breathing and slit my throat
i must be emo
i don't jump around when i go to shows
i must be emo
i'm dark and sensitive with low self-esteem
the way i dress makes everyday feel like Hallowe'en
i have no real problems but i like to make believe
i stole my sister's mascara now i'm grounded for a week
sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
i can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
girls keep breaking up with me, it' never any fun
they say they already have a p*ssy, they don't need another one
stop my breathing and slit my throat
i must be emo
i don't jump around when i go to shows
i must be emo
dye in my hair and polish on my toes
i must be emo
i play guitar and write suicide notes
i must be emo
my life is just a black abyss, you know, it's so dark. and it's suffocating me. grabbing ahold of me and tightening it's grip, tighter than a pair of my little sister's jeans . . . which look great on my by the way
when i get depressed i cut my wrists in every direction
hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
i write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
i told my friends i bleed black and cry during classes
i'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
you can read me "Catcher in the Rye," and watch me jack off
i wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
if i said i like girls i'd only be half right
i look like i'm dead and dress like a homo
i must be emo
screw XBOX i play old school Nintendo
i must be emo
i like to whine and hate my parentals
i must be emo
me and my friends all look like clones
i must be emo
my parents just don't get me you know. they think i'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy. well, a couple of guys. but i mean, it's the 2000s. can't 2, or 4 dudes make-out with each other without being gay. i mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. i don't know diary, sometimes i think you're the only one that gets me, you're my best friend. . . . i feel like tacos
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The Queen has spoken at : 11:21 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
The way you'd close your eyes
Your lashes against mine
The way you used to smile
I'd bite my lip and smile
The light was baby blue
And I'd take care of you
And our baby too
I would marry you
The glacier looked so sweet
We said we'd never leave
You said it must be fate
You found your soul mate
Now I think too much
"I don't drink enough,"
And then I drink too much
I don't think enough
So go and roll your eyes
A paradox; you'd like
To think that you're right
Well, you're right, alright
You'll stay forever tonight
You'll stay forever
When you left that day
I though you'd be back again
"She's my baby girl;
she'll come back I'm sure"
But Jerry don't you know
That she's not yours to hold
She could hold you back
One more drink, one more heart attack
Jerry what'd you do?
Cause now you're losing you
Why would you lose that ring?
Rachel really loved you
Rachel really loved you
Now I think too much
"I don't drink enough,"
And then I drink too much
I don't think enough
So go and roll your eyes
A paradox; you'd like
To think that you're right
Well, you're right, you're right, you're right, you're right
You'll stay forever that night
You'd never leave that night
You'll stay forever alright
Guess you'll stick, soft; sex
Losing words for you
And when you're kissing him
I hope he gets the same
You'd never leave
Now we're getting married
That baby's on its way
Her name would be Quinn
It's hard not to pretend
baby eskimo kisses-trophy scars
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 11:11 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
I used to reach for you
I got lost along the way
I used to listen
You always had the just right thing to say
I used to follow you
Never really cared where we would go
Fast or slow
To anywhere at all
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
I look around me
And I want you to be there
Cause I miss the things that we shared
Look around you
It's empty and you're sad
Don't you miss the love that we had?
You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
The only one around
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be
To how it used to be yeah
To how it used to be
To how it used to be
-used to-chris daughtry-
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 11:09 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
"Time Turned Fragile"
Tiny hands, recycled cans, the metal bands I could not stand..
The time you cried and threw your crayons across the floor...
These are the things I think about when I'm alone without you
I wonder of your whereabouts and hope like hell you're happy where you are.
You used to say that you're just fine,
But I still wonder all the time.
Hockey games, medical claims, police reports, terrible grades,
J, I'm so proud of all the things that you have done.
These are the things I think about when I'm alone without you
I wonder of your whereabouts and hope like hell you're happy where you are.
I'm alright, I'm alright.
I can see through everything you say, and all the lessons I never learned..
You used to say that you're just fine,
But I still wonder all the time.
Do you still believe in the stories told
To you by my friends and I when you were four years old?
How it got so cold that words just froze
We had to wait 'til summer to find out what was said
One of the best times that we had.
I know I say that I'm just fine,
But I hope you wonder from time to time.
I was nervous from the start that our muscles might tear us apart
(Are muscles tearing us apart?)
From the words that carve our lives to the words that take us by surprise
(I was never taken by surprise.)
From the sounds that disappear to the changes we begin to fear
(I can hear you clearly.)
One day I'll fail to breathe and all you'll have are memories
(All we are are memories.)
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 11:07 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
I'm so scared that the way I feel,
Is written all over my face
When you walk into the room,
I wanna find a hiding place.
We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.
But now, a smile and a touch of your hand,
Just makes me come unglued.
Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth.
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you.
So complicated, I'm so frustrated.
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
Oh, I want you to know.
But then again I don't. It's so complicated.
Oh..just when I think I'm under control.
I think I got a grip.
Another friend tells me that, I'm always on your lips.
They say I'm more than just a friend, they say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me from the corner of your eye.
Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess.
But think of what I'd
be losin', if your answer isn't yes.
So complicated I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel.
Oh I want you to know, but then again I don't, It's so complicated.
Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited.
So long for someone like you
Oh, what do I do.
Oh should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
I want you to know,but then again I don't.
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated.
Ohh..
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 11:02 PM
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Post Title :
I've Waited for you for so long
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The Queen has spoken at : 1:39 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
i woke up when King got here.. so obviously i wasnt ready for school good thing mommy wasn't here.. ended up watching you me and dupree.. haha 11 na ata.. hindi parin ako naliligo.. grrr.
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 9:00 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
Post Title :
I've Waited for you for so long
[Too Short]
Ya know
It’s a hard pill to swallow
When they tell you you strange
And you aint hot
But in the blink of an eye
They got on what you got
That means I’m a Boss!
[Kelis & Too Short]
Uh, uh
Watch the beat go
[Kelis]
I'm Bossy!
I'm the first girl to scream on the track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right I brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right I'm the one that's tattooed on his arm....
I'm Bossy
I'm the chick y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raisin' stakes
I told Young Stunna he should switch to bass
I'm back wit an 808, cause I’m bossy
Ooo lemme slow it down so you can catch the flow(catch the flow)
Screw it up, make it go extra slow (extra slow)
Real girls get down on the floor (on the floor get down)
If i gave you a taste you want some more
Touchdown on me ... like a pro
I'd rather be like a bicycle
I'm icy cold
ooo from the 6'4 hoppas up in Crenshaw
the money-makin playas up in Harlem
don't want no problems
we gon' keep it pumpin'
while the 808's jumpin'
diamonds on ma neck d- diamonds on ma grill
diamonds on ma neck d- diamonds on ma grill
I'm Bossy
I'm the first girl to scream on the track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right I brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right I'm the one that's tattooed on his arm
I'm Bossy
I'm the chick y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raisin' stakes
I told Young Stunna he should switch to bass
I'm back wit an 808, cause I’m bossy
(Oh, I bet, I bet, I bet) I Betcha never heard it like this before
Me and my baby be closin' them phantom doors
At the bar poppin this that u can't afford (can’t afford)
That u can't afford
i'm chokin'
Lost in the clowds it's all smokin'
All the while i'm all open
Me and ma girls we stay fly
And we love to stay high
Ooo from the 6'4 hoppas up in Crenshaw
The money-makin playas up in Harlem
Don’t want no problems
We gon' keep it pumpin'
While the 808 is jumpin'
Diamonds on ma neck d- diamonds on ma grill
Diamonds on ma neck d- diamonds on ma grill
I'm Bossy
I'm the first girl to scream on the track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right I brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right I'm the one that's tattooed on his arm
I'm Bossy
I'm the chick y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raisin' stakes
I told Young Stunna he should switch to bass
I'm back wit an 808, cause I’m bossy
[Too Short]
It's ‘bout time that she get wit me
Can’t stop starin, she's fine and she's pretty
Damn girl- don't hurt him
Don’t back back, u gon’ work him
Put cha mack down
I know your background
What u want girl?
You getting’ that now
That's how you do it huh?
Well I’m the coolest one
Them bad bitches in the back, bring ‘em to the front
Tell that man, you's a bossy...
Make some noise if you's a bossy...
I don't think he understand you's a bossy…
get some help if he can cause he lost it
'Aint no refunds, she spent the cash man
in your Benz wit her friends, in the fast lane
Flossin’. You said, “how much it cost me?”
About a million dollars playa; she's bossy
[Kelis]
I'm Bossy
I'm the first girl to scream on the track
I switched up the beat of the drum
That's right I brought all the boys to the yard
And that's right I'm the one that's tattooed on his arm
I'm Bossy
I'm the chick y'all love to hate
I'm the chick that's raisin' stakes
I told Young Stunna he should switch to bass
I'm back wit an 808, cause I’m bossy
[Kelis & Too Short]
Uh, uh
Watch the beat go…
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 10:35 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
Wicked Sick.
I was uber lazy to go to school today.. nonetheless i got up, took a bath and went anyway.. haha.. english was sooo boring so i left the class.. haha trigo was as expected mind-boggling.. math1 was hmm.. as it always was.. the quiz on modules 2-4 during psych was.. hmm? uhmm.. easy. HAHA. yabang. computer was.. quiet.
then stayed at the "kainan" in city oil and waited for everyone else and the girls.. went to sta. lu.. we were supposed to watch a movie but then.. we just went to brickroad instead. had a funny "photoshoot"with guchi and king using mhe's fone and had that printed together with some other pictures of king and i..
then it all started...
The Fab5*(dahil sa kalokohan ni shem, na binyagan tuloy kaming.. hmm? bading?) meaning us girls.. were all inside and of course the guys at the back.. The girls and I were so full of energy that we were dancing and slamming into each other the whole time.. haha.. until we realized the guys at the back were singing their lungs out at nagkagulo.. all the windows were open and everyone was singing so loud.. that everyone we passed by looked at carias.. and take note.. i was singing too.. kawawa naman mga nakarinig ng boses ko hahaha.. it was so HILARIOUS. super fun. napagod ako.
and a big plus to that..
I had an uberr great time with King.
I Love You Darling.
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 10:09 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
Post Title :
I've Waited for you for so long
putangina 3 oras na. and counting. goodluck sakin.
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The Queen has spoken at : 9:06 PM
Thursday, January 18, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
left the house mga 7:35 and went to school*.. missed the first class.. anyway.. ate lunch sa tapat and guess how lucky i can get! i didnt eat dinner the night before and didnt have time to eat breakfast it was way past my lunch time and i was freakin starving to death.. so i ordered na.. ate ate ate then finished half of my ulam and my rice na.. so i ordered extra rice pa.. AND GUeSS WHAT!!! PUCHA. naubusan ng kanin.. anak ng boogie nga naman oh! went to cantina then drews then sta.lu at nagtrip sauna.. with the girls of course.. then went to mickeys place drank a little and went home.. and guess what ulit!! i was too sleepy to function na kasi eh.. when i opened my eyes.. SHET. Brown out ang alvero!!! FUCK THE WORLD NA TALAGA.. it was freaking 3 in the morning at brown out naglalakad ako takot na takot.. haha good thing King brought me home.. and stayed with me till around 5 with yaya.. haha tulog na tulog si yaya eh.. hindi ko magising.. takot ako umakyat magisa.. hahaha shet..
BROADCAST:
CONGRATS TO MASA AND MAE.
HINDI NA BA USO ANG STEADY LANG?
wah iniwan niyo kami!! hahaha may initiation rin ang pagalis sa club noh!! hahaha..
GOODLUCK TO YAAAALLLLLLL!
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 10:09 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
BTW.
CONGRATULATIONZ
to
♥ ZAM and JM ♥
hehe.. uii zila naÜ
amzow happeee for you guyzz.. hahahaÜ
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 9:54 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
brickroad with everyone billiards sila then sauna.. loveee it!
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The Queen has spoken at : 9:51 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
Post Title :
I've Waited for you for so long
FIRST DAY.
steady lang. parang highschool.
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The Queen has spoken at : 9:49 PM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
its been a month since that glorious day at brickroad.
amlovingit.
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The Queen has spoken at : 9:40 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
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The Queen has spoken at : 4:00 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
mommy just got home.. hahaha.. rytrytryt.
12&13 esquinita with everyone.. nung 13.. guess what.. we had our second fight.. ung una? nung seven.. hay naku.. reasons reasons reasons.
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The Queen has spoken at : 9:57 AM
Monday, January 01, 2007
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I've Waited for you for so long
2006
hmm 2006??
parang testimonial eh noh..
ano ba.. i will never forget???
i will never forget the moments that happened this year..
or better yet..
I WILL NEVER FORGETperiod
♥
The Queen has spoken at : 7:53 PM
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I've Waited for you for so long
Went to eastwood at around 11 na.. met up with komi then went to blue O and met up with selwyn errol denice kino roy megan and cacay*.. then saw dino duane dale kyle bitong and jmdudung there.. Then gill and billie followed.. drank drank drank.. then danced with them.. I MISSED the adrenaline rush that heart-thumping beats, alcohol and dim lights bring you. and the energy was extremely high,, andami pang tao! grabe.. then mix jmkulit masa and king went there too.. grabe everyone was just hyped up and shit and everyone kept dancing.. stayed inside till around mga 4 am.. saw france bonnin pa pala.. plus some guy i know i knew but i wasnt sure coz it was too dark.. haha.. then saw ardy outside then satyed till around 5.. then brought everyone home.. haha basta. ZOOPERFUN. got home ate hotdog then went with mama tito ino joshua and avielle to nepa to buy fireworks and everything we needed for new year.. got home then went with mama and king.. we went to hi top then riverbanks.. since wala pa kaming tulog ni king mga afterlunch we fell asleep na.. haha.. woke up around 5 then we helped my mom out.. ate dinner.. went to mass.. tapos fireworks na.. walang tigil na pagpapaputok.. hahaha.. FUNFUNFUN. went to gills place after that and billie was there rin pala.. then mix jm duane bitong and masa followed.. tried masas wine.. and guess what.. i didnt like it.. so cympre sa beer nalang ako.. ayun.. mickey was so drunk na when he got there so he was so kulit.. then everyone else got too stoned to function.. hahaha... then king and i had a fight.. he said sorry but i was too stubborn to listen to him.. ayun tuloy i miss him na.. anyway.. slept over billies place.. it was like an uber long day and i loved it.. nakakapagod.. pero.. wala lang.. masaya..
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The Queen has spoken at : 7:29 PM